I'm just shy of 23 and I'm still without a direction for my career. I feel pressure to find a direction for my career and then hurry up and get going because I'm of the generation that has endless options for education and careers. Even though I'm only 22, by the time I've chosen and studied for a new career I'll be pushing 30. Isn't that a little too old? I mean, it's not old.. but it's not young when it comes to new starts. Besides, at this rate I'll be 60 before I realise what I want to do let alone achieve it.
When people encourage me to study or choose a career I feel like I'm being pushed down a path they wish they had taken.
What I need is a dream that reflects my interests but will satisfy my rational and responsible side that will provide me with stability. What I need is a dream full stop.
"What do you want in the end?" Well, I can envision what I want in the future. I want a comfortable life (no bells and whistles neccesary) where I'm inspired and doing something that I naturally excel at. I want the option to be financially stable on my own because I cherish my independence. Except I don't want to blur my hobbies with my career because I don't want a pay check dangling over my head to be my only motivation for working.
The faint dreams that I have had in the past conflict with almost all of what I just mentioned. I'd love to live in Asia working in fashion, running a well-read blog or any creative space. However, making a living in a foreign country and supporting myself would be such a struggle that my pay cheque would become the bottom line instead of my happiness. How would a creative based career provide enough for me to get by independently in my own country much less a foreign one?
Until I know what I want in life, I can't pursue anything whole heartedly.
I'll keep looking at what I love and wait for it to come to me. I'll realise a dream eventually, hopefully....
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